wow, it's the last day of classes and i swore i was gonna celebrate tonight

but i don't feel like it once again, i have 3 bottles of rum and no motivation to move. I think its because ive been wearing the same clothes all week and i sort of smell.

kidding

but i feel just like a map with out a single place to go of intrest.

-ryan adams

nothing turns out like you plan.

I suppose im writing in here because i lean on the hop that no one reads this anymore.

this place used to be a bitching forum, a boring recitation of people's days, and an open heart for everyone to look in.

this is just a memory now. i miss how i used to check this thing like 5 times a day..  now its my stupid myspace.. or even worse Facebook..

nothing but online listings of your friends.

tell me how you can be so tired of everything you always wanted..

instead of leaving such a mysterious phrase.. for once ill elaborate... Finally I'm a band girlfriend. of all my youthful days of following FJH.. all i ever wanted was to be that guy in the band's girlfriend. Well now the guy is JP and hes wonderful.. kind, talented, and we're no doubt in love. I have trekked to show after show and carried guitar after bass after keyboard... and i want a break... im tired of being tired... im tired of dancing just to get others to dance.. and being so self conscious while i do it. Im sick of the same songs and I miss my best friends.

"I wanna go home, let me go home"-Beach boys

cant have a xanga entry w/out suitable lyrics at the end

well im not sure why im writing here b/c i havent much to say

 i suppose a brief update is in order...
first year of college  is over... and it dosent seem real... everybody has gone back to murfreesboro and yet im still here in k town.. i love being on my own but i think i need murfreesboro to calm my nerves a bit.

highschool seems so far away and insignificant now...
they werent kidding when they said it was the best days of our lives.

leave some love if you remember me...

-MeL-

hey

im alive if anyone was wondering

my hands are orange... you think im exaggerating but im not.

greenpower?

oh my god

its so hard to stop smoking

the only thing keeping me from smoking now is that i dont have any and i wont buy them so thats a good thing...

help me!!!

3 weeks and counting